Let me start this one with a story about one of my spiritual heroes.
When Krishnamurti was 14 it was ‘discovered’ that he was a kind of ‘Messiah’ (despite the fact that his new worshippers thought he had ‘a slightly moronic look’). He was brought up by the Theosophists and prepared for his future career as the New World Teacher. He became the centre of a cult.
But when he was 34 he gave it all up. Telling his followers that he was not a teacher, not a guru, and that there was not even such a thing as religion. In fact he told them a story about the Devil:
“The devil and a friend of his were
walking down the street, when they saw a man pick up something from the ground, look at it, and put it away in his pocket. The friend said to the devil, ‘What did that man pick up?’ ‘He picked up a piece of the truth,’ said the devil. ‘That is a very
bad business for you, then,’ said his friend. ‘Oh, not at all,’ the devil replied, ‘I am going to help him organize it [into a new religion].”
For Krishnamurti ‘truth is a pathless land.’ No one can guide another towards the truth, it has to be earned for yourself. He said:
“I do not want followers, and I
mean this. The moment you follow someone you cease to follow Truth. I
am not concerned whether you pay attention to what I say or not. I want
to do a certain thing in the world and I am going to do it with
unwavering concentration. I am concerning myself with only one
essential thing: to set man free. I desire to free him from all cages,
from all fears, and not to found religions, new sects, nor to establish
new theories and new philosophies.”
Now Krishnamurti spent the next 56 years of his life (he died in 1986) as a sort of anti-guru teaching only one thing: Awareness.
That’s it: nothing else. Just Awareness. And its right there in the teachings of Buddha and Christ: just sit on your bum and train your awareness on what’s going on right now.
Here are some of the things I have learned about Awareness.
- It is not detachment. You are still involved in experience but you are also aware of how and what you do when you are in it.
- Awareness is not thinking. Awareness notices thoughts come up and waits for them to process and then go away.
- It does not require meditation (in fact, some types of meditation – the ones that try to ’empty the mind’ just get in the way).
- Awareness means witnessing everything that happens to you, without
interfering in the flow of events. You observe how you move, how you
walk, how you eat, how you talk.
- Practicing Awareness makes you intensely aware of your living in the moment – now.
- You also become more emotional, not less.
- States of joy, peace and serenity, become more and more ‘normal’.
- Worry becomes hard to do.
- As you develop Awareness you cease to live in the past and in the future.
- You become more and more grounded, centred in your body,
- You also become increasingly averse to words like ‘God’, ‘Love’, ‘Human existence’, ‘Fate’, ‘Heaven’, etc.
- Suffering becomes more bearable – you are aware that that experience, too, will pass.
- Because the practice of Awareness makes you less intolerant, and less judgmental, you become more and loving and compassionate towards others.
- Once in a while this state of Awareness opens up and expands – and for a split-second you go into a God-like state of consciousness (sorry, I can’t really explain it better than that – the whole thing is beyond words). It is utterly blissful.
“Do not try to become anything.
Do not make yourself into anything.
Do not be a meditator.
Do not become enlightened.
When you sit, let it be.
When you walk, let it be.
Grasp at nothing.
And if you haven’t wept deeply, you haven’t even begun to meditate.”